Silence.

     Sitting in my room, making a poor attempt at trying to explain what God is showing me in my life, I am absolutely infatuated and in awe of the one whom my soul adores. The one who spun the earth into motion, who walked on water, who heals wounds, who brings absolute freedom in my life... That one, sweet Jesus. Oh, how often I find myself at a fork in the road, wondering which way to turn, who to trust, what decision to make. In the midst of my frustration, I simply cry out to Jehovah God, begging for reassurance, comfort, peace, something to help me... Although I often feel His sweet Spirit, that is not always the case.

     I can remember feeling lonely, desperate, and completely broken in some of the most trying circumstances of my life. However, it was in these periods of pain that I was met with a reassuring sweep of love by Christ himself-- a peaceful love that words simply cannot explain. The comfort that entered my life by simply asking God seemed surreal to me. My heart overflows with thankfulness at the thought of a holy God wanting to strengthen and bring peace to a wretched sinner like myself.

    I can also recall moments in my walk when I felt deserted, abandoned, and completely unloved by a God who gave up His entire life for my sake. Man, how painful and uncomfortable these seasons of life are. We cry out for Jesus to move, and seem to receive NOTHING in return. No peace, no comfort, no sense of His presence. Our immediate response often includes thoughts of anger, bitterness, and rejection towards God. I would like to justify these very thoughts, but that is when ignorance takes root.  

You see, it is in these very seasons of silence that we learn, grow, and blossom into the children of God we are called to be. My friend, whatever season you are in, take heart! There is a sovereign God who directs every detail in your life, "working all things for the good of those who love Him" (Romans 8:28). Christ Jesus calls us to a life of faith, trusting him with all of the plans He has for us... Regardless of how you "feel" in your relationship with Him. 

Please remember: He is with you in EVERY season, whether you may sense His presence or feel trapped in a chasm of silence. Lift your eyes, my brothers and sisters, for the King is absolutely enthralled with YOU. 
It is my prayer that in those periods of silence, you may experience the growth, molding, and forming of the person you are called to be. 

"So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand."
~Isaiah 41:10

"My soul, wait silently for God alone, for my expectation is from Him."
~Psalm 62:5

"Be still and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth!"
Psalm 46:10

Blessings <3